Thanks Fiona I haven't been sitting here all morning dwelling on it but did hit quite a bad point earlier. since then my son rang asked me out to walk his dog and I've been and felt quite a bit better whilst doing it. I'm off out again in a bit your reply has helped a lot. I am going through quite a stressy time at the moment off to my son's wedding in Greece next week , so all the associated feelings.<br /> I had panicked, I feel now that its ok' to keep topping myself up when needed to live as normal as possible but not beat myself up all the time for doing everything' wrong. Life can't be one big eureka moment it has to be a slow and steady pace. And if thnigs were bad, yesterday today , whenever it's transitory, stop trying to find this place of peace'. Allow myself to feel bad sometmes too and not feel guilty about it. Reading the posts does help when you're in this position and as Nikki says posting if you're on your own helps you share the feeling. Very interesting post off Nicole and sort of says it all it's the way we view' things not reality.<br />Thanks again , a big help Fiona. xxx,
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