fiona Thank you! You are helping me so much today i hope you know this .All the things i have been posting, all the stuff i have written today, all this has been going round in my head for ages and i can feel it all unravelling as i am writing to you. I can identify which bits of the anxiety that bother me of course the physical symptoms are hard to deal with but it is the emotion that i am having a hard time with.When i think about this nursing i get such an overwhelming "oh my god no i dont want to" really scared feeling like a kid thats just woke from a nightmare it is really intense.The thought of commiting myself to this course for three years and having to put my effort into it freaks me out so much and yet i was really excited about it till my anxiety struck .I had my panic attack on jan 4th and started my course on the 26th jan and because the anxiety got worse i have obviously linked nursing to the really strong negative emotions i was feeling at this time because i didnt understand what was happening to me.I had intense d.p and my house didnt belong to me i was watching myself constantly and placing words in sentances.It was so extreme and came from no-where and just dropped on me. I am not at all like that now although if i thought about it hard enough i could probably make it all come back again.Besides when i deffered from my course they said the next intake was next january so maybe then.Also the main reason for doing the course was purely because i wanted a job that could bring in better money than i had been earning, as id been on my own with the kids my tax credits made up most of my income and i was worried what woud happen when my son left school.I didnt think me and my husband would get back together,so i think the reason for doing it in the first place may not have been quite right and so it makes deciding whether to go back to it or not quite difficult.This anxiety because of the emotional attatchment to the course- I cant make an informed decision about it or not.I was just hopeing that maybe by november (which is when i need to inform the university if i intend to return) the anxiety had subsided sufficiently to allow to decide properly.I know it sounds like i am waiting for anxiety to decide but i just dont want to make a mistake and end up dropping out again .<br />Thank you so much you dont know how much you have helped me today.,
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