Hey Candie,<br />Yah, I geuss that I am having one of those deep thinking moments and searching for answers yet again. Damn hormones!<br />I keep thinking that I am close to recovery as I go for days, sometimes weeks feeling increasingly better, almost joyful and it all seems so clear. Then the curtain falls again and sometimes there are new stronger feelings that arrive that I am not familiar with and I start to scare myself with thoughts about the future again and presto I am here in fighting mode. I recognize memory and habit are pulling me back and what needs to be done is not fight, allow, and keep moving. I think Winston Churchill said "If you find yourself going through hell, keep going". What a simple statement, but it is useful for me when things get a little bumpy. I have also just been reading Robert Holdens "be happy" and in it he talks about how negative emotions dont' exist, it is our response to them that creates the sufferring.<br />I appreciate you indulging my concerns and it has helped. Thank-you so, so much. Nicole,
how to do pullups, ugz,