I know exactly what you're talking about Patrick. The constant thinking and worrying about "I'm going to be like this forver" has been horrible. It's been my main symptom. In the beginning, I was having some of the physical symptoms (i.e. chest tightness, dizziness, numbness), but I really don't have that anymore. And if I do get those symptoms, they don't bother. I know it's just anxiety. Today has started off rough for me. I've been so down with thoughts just constantly racing around in my mind. I keep comparing myself to times during this whole anxiety thing where I've felt normal. Now it seems like my mind is constantly on anxiety. It's absolutely the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing I think of before I go to bed. Like Patrick, I also wake up in the middle of the night thinking about anxiety and this whole situation and how I got myself into this. I just get into such negative thought patterns. I tell myself "I can't concentrate on anything", "I don't enjoy anything anymore", "I'm like this now, and there's no way out". I feel horrible when I get like this. On other days, I have more positive thoughts....I'm still always thinking, but its more like "ok....I'm dealing with this pretty well" or "I feel good right now". But I'm still constantly thinking about me. I hate it. I just feel so stuck....like I don't know to stop thinking about myself and my situation. When you say let the focus be on me if I needs to be....does that mean keep thinking about myself?? I'm so confused. Any help or advice from anyone would be greatly appreciated.,
proactiv, >:((,
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