Ok, so I'm new to this blog and find it so insightful! I'm extremely guilty of not going with the flow.. In past relationships, the creme usually did just rise to the top and quickly :D. I loved knowing almost scary soon that I was the gf! But... Looking back I also see the pattern in the guy I was attracting.. Handsome,sexy, attentive, controlling.. Lol.<br /> Anywhoo, I'm experiencing a different kind of man now. He was sweating me hard for the longest but I was seeing someone casually as I had not too long before that got out of a LTR.. ( We're coworkers with a really close mutual friend ) I noticed him when I first went to work there but I was attached and he was too Later finding out were both in LTR's. Fast forward a couple years and that's where the "sweating started" I told him about the guy I was seeing and he backed off but made it no secret he was still interested. So when the last guy and I parted ways I called new guy and so it started.. Crazy sexy, not too possessive, hella funny and made it clear with words and actions that he liked me.. A lot. Two great months later he starts "going through a lot of stress". IMO old chick comes back in the picture.. He tries to figure out what he wants to do ( I've been this chick b4).. And he does enough to keep me hanging on for about a month but was not acting like he was.. Not even close. The last week during this stress of his, I was like forget this. Erased his number, pictures, and deleted him as my facebook friend. Said I cared about him and will be just his friend.. Lol Of course 2 weeks later he feels so much better and he's back.. Misses me, continuing with his normal demeanor wanting to pick back up.. I hesitated and after giving dig after dig on what had transpired we started again.. it's been really cool the past 6 wks or so but my trust isn't the same.. The momentum slowed but I'm crazy about him.. He started acting a tad jealous the other day as I had plans with another friend. So, I came out and said " look, I know I'm looking to eventually be in a relationship. Is this what you're looking to be in?" He seems shocked I asked and He said that he usually just goes with the flow and that he has been through a lot lately (said "stress" and his grandfather just died) but that in the near future that he does want a SO and he wouldn't be dating me now if he didn't think of me in that way.. That was yesterday evening. Haven't heard from him at all today. Did I mess it up?,
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